This post was contributed by Armaan Babai-Pirouz
My Stutter and Me: Lessons Learned
My stutter and me will never peacefully co-exist. I hate this stutter. As I grow older I learn more about it; the more I learn about it, the more I hate it. I’ve learned that I cannot pronounce the “y “sound in the word “yes” when it really counts, or the “n” sound in the word “no” when it really counts, such as at my workplace talking on the telephone. I’ve learned that having this stutter makes my voice louder than is necessary, which is really a bummer when more than one co-worker says I need to speak softly and I say I’ll try, although I am not certain that I can.
Patience in the Midst of Struggle:
I am not going to post that my stutter makes me a stronger person because I don’t know that. I know it makes me more patient with other people’s challenges, and for that I am thankful, because with my stutter I definitely ask for patience from my listeners.
The one thing I know my stutter teaches me every moment of every day is what I learned at Capital Area Speech: To never give up on myself. No matter how many times my stutter embarrasses and frustrates me, I should keep trying to communicate, keep trying to make the next time I open my mouth a better experience than I when I opened it and just rasps and stutters happened.
It may sound odd and scary to readers who do not stutter to hear speaking anywhere besides a podium or a stage described as a struggle, but for me that is exactly what it is. I don’t know if I will win that struggle. I do know what losing it will look like: Giving up. Thanks to what I’ve learned at Capital Area Speech, that is not going to happen.